If you've found yourself feeling lost or broken...If you've ever had your conscious turn against you, murmurs of suicide filling your mind... Then here's the solution, the only way out. Talk to someone. Your phone is almost always nearby. There are people who care or who will care when they hear from you. You are not alone. If you can't bring yourself to tell someone you know personally, whether it be a relative, friend or teacher, then reach out to the hundreds of organizations that are there to listen. Below is a link to a list of international suicide hotlines as well as some links to online chat support. These organizations can talk you through this tough time and often help you find counselling services in your area. There are lists of phone numbers from the majority of countries, from Tongo to South Korea, Canada to the United Kingdom. If you need help, there are people out there for you. These hotlines exist to help you, you aren't a burden to them. You deserve help, you deserve someone to listen to you unbiasedly. Don't hesitate to reach out for guidance.

Mental Health Resources:

• International Suicide Hotlines
• 7 Cups of Tea Online Counselling
• Blah Therapy Online Chat
• Relate Counselling
• Talkspace Online Therapy

If you just need to get something off your chest, talk to them for a little while and then leave it be. Most organizations that offer counselling or peer discussion offer their services anonymously. You can stop any time and no one else will know what you talked about. It's private and confidential, your thoughts will not be broadcast to anyone else.

In my complex situation, talking to someone who's unbiased and uninvolved has been such a great help. My lovely counselor opened my eyes to so many things and told me that my anxieties weren't me feeling crazy. I had real reasons to be so worked up. I spent the majority of my first two sessions in tears, telling him about my life for the past year. I let everything out and my counselor listened so patiently. He repeated certain parts back and explained what was going on and why I felt the way I did. I left the counselling office feeling justified and confident. It wasn't all in my head, it wasn't all hormones.

I'm making changes starting today. I am being more confident in myself and not being so subservient. No more being a door-mat to please others. Not an easy decision to make. It might cause more problems right now, but it makes me happy. That should help the situation all around. At least I hope.

Dana~