Humans are extremely adaptable. We're always trying to look better, do better, be better. I'm no different. I wouldn't be human if I claimed as much.
Last year, I set out some goals for myself to complete before my 25th birthday. Almost all of them were rather grand schemes despite me labelling them as 'simple'. I'm actually quite surprised that I ended up completing two out of the three. I detailed that in a post I made yesterday which you can read here.
I made 2018 hard for myself with those goals. Losing weight was the worst of them. It was a miserable task. If you want to ramp up your own self-loathing to 11, then seriously, try a new diet. I guarantee you'll hate yourself with a burning passion by hour three. And I did that for six months! Not a great plan for someone with severe depression like myself. Lots of suicidal thoughts. It was dumb of me to pursue weight loss without any mental health support. No, not dumb. Dangerous. I should've known better. So this year, I plan to be better to myself. I'm still going to have goals, but I'm done with pressuring myself. For 2019, I'm going simple!
Before I Turn 26 I Want To:
- Write More
- Plan My Wedding
- Look After My Mental Health
See, this time around I'm being purposely vague with some of these. I'm not setting any hard limits on my writing because I know it doesn't help me get anywhere. I'm also not looking to cure my mental health issues. However, I still need to actually deal with them instead of pretending they don't exist (cause that works, right?). As for the wedding, well... It isn't going to plan itself, so I might as well do it. At least I'm not doing it alone. My partner is helping and my mother too.
We'll see how I do in a year from now. Maybe I'll achieve all three goals, maybe none—actually sort of need to finish wedding planning— but I won't know until all is said and done. I'm excited to try though, and that's a good feeling to have.
-Dana.
What are your goals for 2019? Do you believe in making new years resolutions? Do you prefer to just enjoy life as it happens? Let me know in the comments!